First off let me preface this by stating that I as much as I love the information posted on this site, my favorite part of what goes on here are the fan posts and shots and the discussions that follow. For the majority of my nearly 30 years, I have had no association with other Bills fans and haven't been able to have ridiculously deep discussions about the intricacies of the team, that for better or worse, I LOVE. I mean where else will you find 50 people discussing things like how excited they are for David Nelson to contribute, how Joique Bell is too good to only be on the PS, and how frustrating it is to root for a player like Kirk Chambers. I get that here, so I appreciate that from everyone. I just want to get something off my chest. I need a little space to rant for a second.
There seems to be a strong discussion after week one between the optimist, the realist, and the disgusted. The optimists around here tend to post comments which are mean to inspire hope (abayarde), and express reasons we have to feel good about our team. Fair enough. The realists around here tend to post comments such as "what did you expect with a new coach, GM, defense, etc..." or "this process takes time..." Okay, I hear you. And the disgusted fans, well, they are sick and tired of having a team that misses the playoffs in what seems like forever. Understood.
I'm typically not one to categorize myself, but I want to throw out another category that I feel that I am a part of and that is the distrusting. I simply do not trust my team, the Buffalo Bills. Am I sick of watching January football without the Bills? You bet, 100 percent, I am sick and dog tired of it. On Sunday morning do I wake up with the hope that Bills will put it together and play better than their opponent? Yep. Do I understand that it takes time to fix something that has been broken for so long? Yeah, I do. I simply feel like we have been trudging through the mud pit of mediocrity for so long, that I'm starting to Billieve less and less. When is it going to change?
Forgive me if I can't just jump on the Buddy Nix/Chan Gailey bandwagon. Forgive me for being skeptical of every single move that they make. I want to believe them. I want to trust that they are going to get this thing turned around. I want them to be wildly successful. I'd love it. But I've walked down this road with a new coach and GM before and it hasn't worked. I understand that the new regime cannot be blamed for mistakes made in the past, but you are only as good as your last game and the last game was putrid. Fix it. That's all I want. Get it right. Prove to me that Aaron Maybin is not a bust. Convince me that Edwards can excel at the QB position. Show me that C.J. Spiller is a dynamic talent and a game changer. I know we’re only one game in, but it sure feels like a whole lot of the same disappointment.